The words "NOT FAIR" just don't sum it up correctly. 
Our IVF cycle was canceled today. 
I have been on Gonal-F (Stimulation Meds) since Monday.  I was worried for the longest time that we would go through IVF and I would produce too many eggs.  Mark & Christine plus 8!!!  Well...I couldn't have been more wrong.  After a week of Gonal-F I have a grand total of...Drum Roll Please....TWO Follicles!!!  TWO!!!!  I received a call from the doctor's office that they had decided to stop this cycle and convert it to a IUI cycle.  We go in tomorrow.
With our history(and our bodies) the chances of this working are slim.  I'm trying to be as hopeful as possible but...I'm CRUSHED!!!!  I was in my car on my way home from the dentist when the doctor's office called.  I held it together while I talked to Kathy but as soon as I got off of the phone I fell apart.  I screamed so loud I scared myself.  Why does this have to be so hard???? 
Who knows...It could work!?!?!  But I have already started gearing my self up for the next cycle.  I think that preparing my self for this cycle to fail is the only way I will survive it.    Mark is being wonderful...I just hope I'm doing enough for him.  I can tell he's bummed.  I know some how we'll get through this and have the family we dreamed of.  But until then....THIS JUST SUCKS!!!
10 years ago
 
2 comments:
I'm so sorry your IVF got converted, this whole process is just so stressful and such a roller coaster. I know it's not going as planned but I am praying that it brings you a BIG FAT POSITIVE! GL and ((HUGS))
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